Entry 01 Casper ~ treasuring all that is unseen.

Casper is the name that I chose for my first blog post, mainly because when I was in my early 20’s my dear cousin who was visiting from Australia affectionately named me Casper - on account of the friendly ghost. Basically, during a family wedding I was pretty much invisible, but none the less I continued to be a friendly little ghost in the background…and in all that is unseen.  

Recently doing more research, I realised that Casper is actually Biblical, the name originates from Aramaic and means "treasurer". It comes from the Chaldean word gizbar, which appears in the Hebrew version of the Old Testament Book of Ezra. Thats something I hope to aspire to be, a treasurer of all the knowledge of spirituality that I have encountered and have been entrusted with during my lifetime. I started my soul journey at an early age, and although I possessed a natural inclination towards the spiritual world, I also encountered some very challenging situations in my life that propelled me to go deeper within and seek a way of being and discover inner resources that were uncommon.  By the time I turned 21, I met my then spiritual mentor.  I spent countless hours and years in retreats and Satsang's around the world. I experienced huge awakening within my awareness, both energetically within the body, and in my consciousness; through devotion and surrender I underwent a gradual transformation.  

In more recent times after a traumatic couple of years which saw me retreat into myself like never before and doubt everything that I ever valued and held dear, I almost discarded all ‘spiritual’ knowledge that I so dearly valued. Now I am finally emerging with a renewed sense of self, more focused direction and an immense amount of clarity. Not an easy journey, but now I realise it was all together necessary.  

 I feel like times of immense difficulty, particularly in the psyche, serve as the golden opportunity for unparalleled growth. It's accomplished by rocking the ‘barrel of awareness’, letting all the crap and density move and come up.... and then using the ‘sieve of discernment’, deciphering everything of value and discarding the rest. This process executed earnestly over and over again, can only give rise to purer and purer ‘water’ - water referring to the knowledge that resides in our consciousness and manifests as a more evolved awareness. And ultimately, if we allow it to, all that golden treasure of direct knowledge lands in our psyche.   

I have returned to a place where I know what is real can never be lost, no matter how devastating the circumstances might be. I’m here to treasure in a deep and delicate way, all that is real, in spite of all the pain that comes with the beautiful experience of being human. 

I hope you enjoy following me on this blog, and I hope that by sharing my own journey, it might also serve to help any soul who is looking for kinship and direction in the spiritual realm. Treasure is rare, we can tenderly guard it with all our heart.  

Sonia – your friendly ghost.